all of us

i was going through my computer looking at past pictures, when i came across this...these are my invetro hormones. each night at the same time for 24 days, plus the blessed progesterone capsules (up there) 4 times a day for 3.5 months. would we do it all over again? of course.
i so wanted to be like "everyone else", but i would never take back what i learned and gained. looking back, i am glad i am not like "everyone else". i am me. who has learned to lean on my savior, paul, family and friends. sometimes looking to them for greater faith, and the look in their eyes that told me we are in it together.
each time i feel him move, i think of what we (us, family, friends) have done to get him here. i know he isn't just coming to us because of us, but because of all of us. i wish i knew how to express my love and gratitude...
-ash